Hola... It's a month of October already.  9 months passed by in this year of 2014.  I have been trying something new this year.  It is about a social networking business.  I have never been so lucky to be the first runner of this business among my fellows.  The entire concept is simple.  You advertise your product on this website, share this opportunity to your friends and earn profit from it.  I manage to make some money from it and it was awesome!

Well, to draw more people to join this business, I fully utilized my Facebook account.  I publicized my bonus statement to encourage people and stimulate their curiosity about this business.  Yes, it's working.  However, one important thing I genuinely learned from this, I am not supposed to just simply exposed those monetary matters publicly.  People had this sort of thought that you are now in a good standing of your financial affordability.  I don't want to talk openly about this because I aware it will humiliate those people.  But I hardly want to emphasize on one thing, please... Keep your promise!  Don't ever promise to people if you can't accomplish it.  That's the main idea of my entry this time. Hasta pronto....

THOSE WERE THE DAYS WHEN I FINALLY…

 22 years ago, in a rural primary school a young girl fell in love with this famous young boy in her school.  This boy was popular because he was the only one wearing a yellow necktie at school as he was the head prefect.  One day, this girl managed to get the boy’s telephone number.  After school, with only 20 cents with her, she rushed to the public phone and dialed the number.  TUT TUT TUT…her heart was unsettled waiting for the phone to be picked up at the other side.  “Hello” It was the boy’s voice. “Err...hello…can you tell me teacher’s Dora phone number?” This question suddenly pops out somewhere out of the blue.  “Hah? Who is this” asked the boy.  And that was the end of the conversation as the girl hung up the phone.  The girl remains the boy’s secret admirer until the last day of their primary school day together.

In secondary school, both of them were at the same school again.  During the first day in secondary school, this girl with her two best friends were walking heading to the new school and this girl noticed that this boy was walking alone 500 meters behind them.  “mmm…let him walk alone, I don’t want to admire him anymore.  He is too arrogant” murmured the girl, but she never know that it was actually the final day of the boy to be in that area as the next day he will be transferred to another school following his family.  That was the last time she met the boy.  She never had the chance to tell the boy her feeling toward him.  The secret remains neatly folded until they meet again back in 1998. 

Well, a year before they meet again somewhere in 1997, this girl found out that one of her classmates once was the boy’s ex-classmates.  So, this girl took this opportunity by asking her classmates about the boy’s new address.  That was the second phase of their relationship.  They wrote to each other for a year and decided to meet before the last term of secondary school ended.  The dated took place in Centre Point, Kota Kinabalu, Sabah.  Still, no special words were uttered during the dating.  They were just an ordinary old friends met together and chatted.  After meeting this boy after a very long period of time, the special feeling inside this girl toward the boy had slowly faded.  Since that day, they lost contact.  No phone numbers were exchanged, no more letters being mailed to each other.

Dear readers, I am sure you’re guessing it right.  Yes, that young lady is me.  Down memories lane, I must say that how wonderful life is and after all, I learned and admitted that this quotes are really true; To love is nothing, to be loved is something but to love and to be loved by someone you love is everything.  

In 2007, I still remember vividly.  I had to go to Labuan for a trip and I was quite reluctant to go because I was replacing my friend who was unable to make it.  The trip was exciting.  We were actually escorting our student to SESB Patau-Patau, Labuan for a study tour.  We spent about 3 days in Labuan.  On the last day, we were sitting in the lobby, reading a newspaper while waiting for a check out, I heard this voice and it was quite familiar.  I looked around to find where the voice was coming from.  Then, as I expected, came the man approached me,  “If I’m not mistaken, you are Daily right?”.  “Err…yes..and you are Clarence? Am I right?”  My turn guessing his name.  Of course, I was quite unsure because we haven’t met for 9 years.  “Oh…what a coincidence!  What are you doing here?” He asked happily.  “We are escorting our student here.  And you? What r you doing here?” “Mmm…I was forced by my friend to accompany him here.  Well, we just want to have fun.  Oh ya, can I have your phone number?”  Without delaying the time, he asked for my phone number and I willingly gave him.  During the journey from Labuan to Monumbuk by ferry, he sat next to me and we had a chat until the ferry arrived to Monumbuk.

After we met that day, he kept on messaging me.  I don’t really feel excited to reply his messages.  If he messages me 3 times, I will only reply once.  I still remember, one of my friends, Grace told me.  “Don’t close your heart; give a chance for those who tried to get closed to you.”  In the meantime, I kept on praying to God.  I prayed, “God if he is the one then please humble my heart to accept him”.   And God replied my prayer.  Within a couple of days, I began to miss his message.  I was the one who messaged him first and we declared through phone.  I was happy and he was extremely happy too.  This was how his response when I said I had that feeling on him.  “Yahoo..ya be da be du.  I’m the happiest man in the world.  I’ll be smiling all day long”.  Our relationship ran smoothly.  We got engaged at the end 2007, and got married in 2009, on Valentines’ day.  And to my surprise, he was actually my secret admirer too while we were in our primary school.  He told me, during the very last day he was in Keningau, the day I saw him walked alone behind us, he was actually holding a letter, hoping to give to me before they transferred but he didn’t have the courage to give it to me.  Oh…Unbelievable...what a coincidence!  There was a Malay famous saying, I was not actually clapping with one hand during that time. 

Dear readers, those were the days when I finally found my Mr. Right.  God had prepared our destiny.  If she or he is meant to be with you, it doesn’t matter how far you’re separated with your Mr.Right, someday, somehow, you shall be unified together by God.  Just believe in Him.  And to me the greatest gifts that God had given to us are our two cute sons, deo and cj.  I am truly blessed to have these wonderful gifts; three loveable persons in my life.  I will love them until the very last breath of my life.  They are the reasons for me to keep on living and always wanted to be better than I was before.  Thank you Lord.

Hola…well..its 20^th of March 2014…WHAT?!? Yes..2014…it has been 3 years I didn’t update my blog… Some of my friends asked me, “hey!! You didn’t write on your blog recently…right?” And that question was actually 2 years ago and no one ever asked me since that day.  I should say time flew so fast, my elder son is coming to 4 years this June.  Huhu…actually I forgot my blog’s url, that’s why I can’t update my blog and the second reason is; I forgot which email address that I use to login to this blog.

From now on, I will try to update my blog frequently.  I just love to write (if I have more free time).  4 years I struggled to complete my degree and time was so precious during that time.  I don’t even have enough time to spend quality time with my family…what more to spend a few hours in front of my pc just to update my blog.  Study came first, then family…what a cruel and unfair mommy!  But that was once a reality…now it becomes valuable experiences to me.  Now, I have more quality time with my family especially with my two sons…and of course with my loving husband.  Without them, my life would be empty.

Yesterday was my historical day.  It was the validation process for me to get promoted.  I had prepared all the documentations since early January this year until Tuesday early this week.  Fuh!!! It was a though moment but I managed to answer and provide everything during the process.  Thanks God and thanks to everyone who helped me.  I hope there will be good news for me at the end of this year or most probably next year.  Please pray for it. 

Well…that’s all for now…Don’t forget to pray for MH370!!!

Tips for mothers

Deo will soon know how to walk. Now he has started walking, step by step. 3 weeks ago, he started with his first two steps…and 2 weeks ago, he was able to add on a few more steps and to my surprise, yesterday Deo has walked for as far as 2 meters. It was a tremendous progress and I am very impatience to see him walk by his own. Sometimes, Deo fall down a few times and cried but it doesn’t prevent him to stand up again and start stepping forward. I must learn from Deo…I mean learn from babies how they struggle to overcome the fear of being fallen by learning on how to walk properly until they finally succeed. Deo starts to imitate our actions especially the body gestures and our face expressions. Pasted here is a general knowledge that I want to share with you especially for those Mothers out there. I understand, sometimes we do not know how to speak with our little baby especially when choosing a right word. It is a very useful tips, let’s try it together..

You can use these everyday phrases to instill confidence, self-respect, and thoughtfulness in your children.

1. Thank you.It's important to acknowledge your child's efforts to help you or others. You might say: "Thanks for helping me look for that missing sock" or "Thanks for setting the table; I got the salad made while you were doing that."

2. Tell me more.Words like these show your child that you are listening and that you would like to hear more about what's on her mind. "Tell me more" encourages conversation without passing judgment or giving immediate advice – two responses that discourage further communication from your child.

3. You can do it.Your expression of confidence in your child's ability to do many things without your help is important. As your child grows older, there will be many times when your encouragement will mean the difference between his giving up on a challenging task or seeing it through.

4. How can I help?Let your child know you are willing and available to help her accomplish a particular task that may be difficult for her to manage on her own. You might say: "I think you can read that story by yourself now. Let me know if you need help with a new word." As your child takes on projects in school, encourage her to think of specific steps that are necessary to complete a project. You both can decide which tasks your child can handle on her own and which ones she'll need help with.

5. Let's all pitch in.A child is never too young to learn that cooperation and team effort make many jobs easier and speedier – and often more fun: "Let's all pitch in and finish raking the leaves so we can go in and bake cookies," or "Let's all pitch in and clean up the kitchen or we'll miss the movie." Family activities and group chores can develop into pleasant rituals that enrich a child's life and create fond memories.

6. How about a hug?Don't just tell your child you love him – show him. Research indicates that young children deprived of physical touch and displays of affection often fail to thrive. As children grow older, they vary in the ways they like us to show affection. Some love to be cuddled, while others prefer a quick hug or pat on the shoulder. It's important to be aware of what your child enjoys most at a particular age.

7. Please.After all these years, "please" is still a classic. When you ask a favor of anyone – including children – this "magic word" acknowledges that you are asking for a behavior that will help you and/or make you happy. (P.S.: Don't forget to say "thank you" when the job is done.)

8. Good job!Good for you. Self-respect and self-confidence grow when your child's efforts and performance are rewarded. Whenever possible, give your child lots of praise. Be sure your praise is honest and specific. Focus on your child's efforts and progress, and help her identify her strengths.

9. It's time to..."It's time to get ready for bed," or "do homework," or "turn off the TV." Young children need structure in their daily lives to provide a measure of security in an often insecure world. It is up to you as a parent to establish and maintain a workable schedule of activities, always remembering that children benefit from regular mealtimes and bedtimes.

10. I love you.Everyone needs love and affection and a feeling of acceptance and belonging. We can't assume that children know and understand our love for them unless we tell them. Letting your child know that you love him (and showing him with countless hugs) is important not only in toddlerhood, but also as he gets older.

Read more on FamilyEducation:http://life.familyeducation.com/communication/parenting/29547.html#ixzz1LeNU2J5V

Words for Special Circumstances

1. I'm sorry.Parents need to acknowledge their own mistakes and express regret whenever they cause their child unhappiness or distress. "I'm sorry I got soap in your eyes," or "I'm sorry I wasn't listening; tell me again," or "I'm sorry I can't read any more stories to you; I have to make a phone call now." By expressing your sincere regret, you are showing your child that you are being considerate of her feelings and providing her with a model of good behavior as well.

2. No."No, don't do that; you might hurt someone," or "No, we don't behave that way," or "No, we don't have enough money to buy that." When parents have a hard time saying 'no' to their children, these children may grow up without knowing how to respond to limits. Parents can provide children with some freedom of choice (for instance, let your child pick out his own outfit, or let him decide what he'd like to eat for lunch), but be prepared to set boundaries.

3. That's enough."That's enough TV," or candy, or roughhousing, or arguing. This phrase sets limits and paves the way for your child to develop a sense of self-control. Sometimes a "time-out" period is necessary if your limits have been reached and your child isn't responding to the verbal message you are trying to send.

3. How do you suppose she feels?Asking this question provides an opportunity for your child to consider the effects of her actions on another person, and it gives her the chance to develop empathy toward others. When you and your child read stories or watch TV shows together, look for opportunities to talk about the feelings of others.

5. This isn't working. Can you think of another way?Considering alternative ways of behaving in difficult situations is one of the steps of problem solving – an important skill that is useful throughout life. Your response to problems that arise in daily life, at home, or at work provides a model of behavior for your child.

Read more on FamilyEducation:http://life.familyeducation.com/communication/parenting/29547.html#ixzz1LeNgwVcS

What a wonderful day!

What a wonderful day! I’ve just finished answering last paper of my final examination today. Our last Technopreneur paper was the easiest paper among the papers we took this semester. Its only took me ½ hour to answer all the questions confidently. After struggling for several weeks, completing all assignments, and sitting the exam almost continuously for my engineering subjects, YES, at last…the freedom is mine. To my excitement, this holiday is going to be the longest holiday ever since I became a UMS student 2 years ago. How I manage to go through the tiring weeks before and during the exam weeks. Doing two different things at one time really requires my patience and determination.

Sometimes, I was under pressured, my patience was really tempted until I feel like want to quit. But for the sake of Deo and because of I have committed to pursue my study in this field, I have to keep on moving forward and never turning back…Thanks God..He gives me strengths and console me in a very special way. And my sincere thanks also goes to my dearly husband, Deo (eventhough he is too young to understand things) and my family for giving me endless support during the exam time especially by helping me to do all the house works, taking care of Deo, cooking, washing and etc… I realized, I was occasionally help them..and now, be happy because I am about to re-energize and become a housewife/mother that I am supposed to be..(^____^)

FOCUS...FOCUSSSS

Last week, on Thursday, I came to the office around 7.45 in the morning. I have Autocad class at 8 am. I was in rushed as I have to take the key from the project lab. Coincidentally, K.Hamsiah was having a course in ULPL so we (Jaya and me) have to wait for Mr.Mojuning to unlock the door. When he arrived, a bit disappointed when he did not have the key to the lab. We wasted a long wait. I’m worried if the Director suddenly makes a visit to my class early in the morning as he always does. My friend Jaya couldn’t wait any longer, he called Azrin and asked for another key. Luckly Azrin got an extra key.

After we manage to enter the lab, with no doubt and suspicious feeling at all, I wrote in the ‘buku peminjaman kunci’, ECAD and I took ECAD’s key. I rushed to MK2 and tried to unlock the door. I tried to unlock the 1st door which is located far beside the student’s toilet but it doesn’t match. I went to the next door, middle door, try to unlock it but it gives me the same results. And then I walked quickly toward the last door hoping to open it, but still I couldn’t open it. Still unsatisfied with the result, I made a 2nd round, WHY the door can’t be unlocked? I called the last person who entered the lab yesterday, and the person said no problem with the key at all. It was almost 8.30 am, I asked my student to go to BKE 3 and waited for me there while I’m trying to figure out what was wrong. After trying another round to unlock the door, I gave up. I gave up because I don’t know what was actually wrong with the key.

Finally, I went to BKE 3...I told my student, the class is canceled. Wah...they were so happy. I asked them to do the assignment that I gave to them earlier. Disappointed with the incident, I walked slowly to the Project Lab to return the key. So, I have to fill in the “buku peminjaman” that I have returned the key. Do you guys know, what’s wrong with the key? THERE WAS NOTHING WRONG WITH THE KEY….IT WAS ME WHO TOOK THE KEY WRONGLY. After realizing that I was soooo (I don’t know the appropriate terms for it…Forgetful? Careless? Hasty? U help me to name it) It was totally beyond my control…seems like physically I was there, but my mind was somewhere else? When I took the key, I know it’s not the MK2’s key but why I wonder why I didn’t notice it earlier…

So…last week I learned something. I need to concentrate and more focus in everything that I want to do to avoid such thing to be happen again….(^__^)

Our 2nd anniversary...14.02.2011

Today..14 of Feb 2011..A historical and meaningful date to me. It has been 2 years, my marriage…

Mm..a week before, there was a slight misunderstanding between the two of us. But, instead of making it clear, both of us seems so ego, we try to elude talking about it…who is going to start the conversation first? Me..? Him? No body wants. And, at last, guess what happened? Both of us ended up with an empty stomach for the whole day. We only ate for breakfast and that’s it…the misunderstanding leads us to fasting…that’s the funny side of the story…

But, why I can’t erase that from my memory? Is that a new challenge for me? Where to go, what, why, and everything seems need an explanations. From the bright side, I know, that’s how I can understand him deeply. It made me realize, for all this while, my knowledge about him was still very limited…There were many things to discover and to dig in order for us avoid such things to be happened again.

Today, yes, it’s our 2nd anniversary. Instead of that very few bitter ingredients along the way, I better talk about how I lucky I am to have a wonderful family…loving, charismatic, has sense of humor, responsible, charming, gentlemen husband (how could I unsatisfied with those characteristics?) and a very cute, active, chubby, fair and lovely son. This the precious gifts from the Man above. I should be grateful, no complaining…(^___^). If there is a storm in a heavy rain, there is always a rainbow suddenly appears after it…And it is definitely so beautiful…

Well, come back to my planning today…mm, we plan to have lunch together, somewhere we never been before…may be at a Maple Restaurant or else where. But, seem this plan couldn’t work out. He has a limited break time during afternoon and coincidently my class will start at 11am to 1 pm..huhu..so my plan B, maybe I will cook a special dinner tonight…especially for him..:) as a surprise..hehe..mm, I prefer plan B.

Tomorrow, he needs to travel again..So he’ll be away for 3 days. I already get accustomed with this…previously; I used to be alone so this is a small matter for me…No problem at all..:) Ok, I have another thins to be done today…c ya…adios, hasta luego…

Good bye 2010..welcome 2011..(a bit late)

Hello, hi..hola..

Time passes…here I am again. It is now in the year of 2011...how time passes so quickly. The last post I’ve posted in this blog was on May 9, 2010…which is almost a year. Where did I go? I am not going anywhere...I am still here, in Poly KK…and still a UMS student; there is still a long way to go…

Many things happened last year…6.6.10…it was an unforgettable date ever and a great blessing from God. Finally, the apple of my heart, my precious son…DEO CLARENCE TIANDUN was born. The moment was still clearly vivid in my memories. When Deo crying for the first time and holding him right away after the labour. Thank you God…You have given us the true meaning of this life...To my hubby, thank you for being there for me, giving me support during the agony.

Now, I’ve opened the new chapter in my life story…I now have new story to share with…I have Deo to laugh with and cry together. My precious Deo was so cute...reminding me to my husband...*(^____^)*…During that time my husband was a thousand miles from us…he’s working in Sarawak and he only came back once in a month. My title as a mother and student at the same time makes me really exhausted and busy all the time especially when exam was around the corner. It was really hard to focus on what I am doing or reading when hearing the little baby was crying. Fortunately, my sister helped me a lot…she became Deo’s babysitter. Thanks a lot sister…I know, u missed Deo so much now..:)

23th of Dec…another joyous date happened to me last year. After been living apart for almost 2 years, finally God granted our pray. My dearest husband was transferred here, just in a right moment, when Deo starts to recognise people around him. What a meaningful life!!! I will always remember this moment…where the real journey begins………

This year will be our 2nd anniversary, during Valentines Day…the planning is to take a family studio’s photo but we’re still not certain because we haven’t booked it. Coincidently, the CNY holiday is one week earlier so I am afraid if the studio is closed. Supposed I have booked it a few days ago but I was a little bit late, it was closed already for the CNY holiday…So, our 2nd planning is…still thinking…may be, we will go for picnic or etc...

Well, may be it is not too late to say good bye to 2010 and welcome to 2011…I want to be an optimistic person…always be proud of what I’ve done…and more organize in doing works, dealing with time and taking care of my family and giving them my heartiest dedication. Because after all, there are my sunshine…Hubby and Deo… Till then…hasta pronto..:)

Counting each passing day

I’m counting the day now…Actually, I still have 1 month to date, but just in case it’s better get ready from now on, physically and mentally…Am I ready to become a mom? Mm…no comment, but I am extremely enthusiasm waiting for that moment to come…

Lately, I’m so busy with my classes, I’m worried…there were few subjects that I couldn’t thoroughly understand. Especially, my utmost subject Object Oriented Programming… My carry marks on that subject weren’t impressed me much, I know I can do better than that, but my time was terribly limited. I spent my night time to study until 12am sometimes but lately, I feel so tired easily and sleepy before the usual time. I’m going to stand for my exam end of this month... I hope my baby to be born, waits for his mom to settle everything before he’s born.

It’s has been quite long I hadn’t gone back to Keningau. I don’t have the courage to drive back since my belly almost touching the car steering while driving. My hubby will come back here this coming Friday, but only for 3 days, he’ll be off again and take his long holiday on 28th of May. Cant wait for him to come… All this time, I’m alone in my house especially during night. My brother who is staying with me worked at the night shift.

Last night, while I was studying around 10.30pm, suddenly everything surround me became so dark... then only I knew, it was black out. I was so scared, I saw nothing. Luckily, I’ve prepared candles and torchlight at the easily reachable area. I wasn’t sure how long the black out was, but I think more than an hour. It was so hot and the mosquitoes kept on buzzing in my ear. I switched on my laptop fortunately the battery was still fully charged, so I can use it to ease my boringness. Mm...That’s what happened last night.

Today, the weather looks so horrible. I could see the main street is flooding. Thanks God, I don’t have to use that road. My aim today is to settle my students’ carry marks. Actually, I could have done it by last week, but I’m giving opportunities for my students to improve their marks by giving them further assignments. I don’t want them to fail in this subject.

Talking about Toastmasters, I must say that I’m proud to be myself. I manage to deliver my 7 speeches up to now. And, again…even though I am quite busy with my works at the office, classes every weekend and spending my night time to study, I still manage to squeeze my time to prepare, rehearse and deliver my speeches. This coming Thursday, I’ll be the speaker again, and my speech objective will be “Speaking in Praise”. Mm...Haven’t prepared the speech yet but so far, my idea is talking about my mom. She is my aspirer to inspire me, and I genuinely revere her.

Oklah... That’s all for now. Will update this blog next time... Adios, hasta pronto..:)

Mmm...after a year..

Last night, we went to Nelayan restaurant to celebrate the Valentine’s Day and our 1st wedding anniversary. Mm..it’s juz an ordinary dinner but have a special meaning. The thing that I regretted the most was, I can’t capture the time, being together with him in a special moment. However, I’ satisfied…we’ll keep the memory in our heart...forever…

Today’s my mother’s in law birthday…and my late father’s birthday. We celebrate it in a very simple way, but full with laughter and happiness. I was so jealous as I never have the chance to celebrate my father’s birthday with us while he’s still alive. All I can do now is just praying for his soul. May perpetual light shine on him..Amen..

I hope everything is okay there in my Kampung…especially my mother…Recently, she complained about my two stubborn bro and sis…they never learn! I don’t know what should I say…I hope, my mother can hang on with their attitude...sometimes very rude and too over! God please touch their heart so that they will change one day…

Mm..that’s all for now…I’ve no idea..

New beginning of 2010...

I went to UMS to obtain my result. I was a bit shocked when I got it. I manage to get 3.56…this is the highest point I ever achieve compared to my diploma previously. This had inspired me to do well and even better next semester. Pondering at the journey that I have to pass through (3 ½ years to go), I admitted that it is still a very long journey to go…but looking back at the previous semester, the time flew unconsciously. I was back to my normal weight which is 45kg and I everything has come back to a normal condition in all aspects, I can drink milk now and most importantly, I could drink plenty plain water…Now days, I felt tired easily…Maybe because I’m 5 months now…This weekend, the new story of my study will begin…and guess what, I will become very busy during weekend…huhu..no free time, no outing, no sleeping but classes the whole day..

Recently, my bro encountered a big trouble which was everything to do with his life. Fortunately, we manage to solve it slowly by discussion and consideration. It’s involving two parties, that is why we need to settle it down carefully. Sometimes, I was about to giving up, taking care of my family, but since I am the only one they could depend on…so I have to hang on..I know, I still can carry my cross…

Another 2 weeks, all of us will be celebrating Valentine’s Day…including me n my hubby. It’s not merely a Valentine’s Day for us but it’s our first anniversary day...:) I don’t know where to celebrate and how…As long as my hubby coming back here, it’s enough for me…Mm…Juz missing him so much..:)

Ok..got class now…tata…..

Still waiting for next week to come…ya, waiting for my sweet dearly hubby to come..:)

Now, I’m staying with my 2 bro’s n sister…Believe it or not, I’m sleeping with my sister cuz I don’t want to sleep alone. Everyday, I woke up around 6.10am…and every morning I’ll start my day by praying…Now is Dec and next month will be year 2010. What I’ve accomplished this year?

Of course, this year I got married..and that was the most memorable and happiest event that I will never forget…and the 2nd thing is, I’ll be a mom soon…Thanks God. This is an amazing and priceless gift that we ever had…My husband is so happy and so do I..:)

Mm..I’ve started pursuing my study tin UMS. What a challenging mission to achieved…with my recent unwell condition together with the work at office, it’s not an easy task to do. Paying the education’s fee by our own doubled the challenge. I hope, I can go through with this…It’s my dream to pursue my study. I want to be a good lecturer who is worthy to convey what ever knowledge I have to my students. Now, I’m feeling like I’m still very young in this profession even though I’ve spent almost 7 years in this field…I don’t want to be the same level as my student…I feel pity to them. Of course, my experienced had contributed to my knowledge, but I’m not satisfied because people are not looking at your experiences but they’ll judge you through your qualification. Am I right?

Daily, you still have 3 and half years to go…Go for it…!!

My new experience..

Wah…what a lazy blogger...I didn’t update my blog for almost 2 months..I’ve been so busy lately, sitting my final exam in ums. My last paper was yesterday…everything went smooth except for yesterday..it was a disaster…huhu.. But it was pass.. I don’t want to think about it anymore…
Mm..These few weeks, I’m feeling so uncomfortable…I don’t have the appetite to eat…I’m losing out my weight. Previously, my weight was 45kg now go down to 42kg..I hope I can handle this. Apart from that, I’m so happy actually…When I know about the good news…I was so happy…I don’t know how to express it..The first person I told..of course my hubby..:) We were extremely happy…Mm…but the challenge is so though…go through with this alone…without being staying with my hubby make me feel very sick and wanna cry…actually I did.. But, thanks to God…I’ve manage to go through this for the first 3 months…with the help of my bro and sis. Thanks to them for cooking for me…
Today is my 2nd appointment with the doctor..I hope everything will be ok…but I’m afraid of injection…Gosh..I hate that..It’s very painful…huhu…
So, what’s our planning for the coming xmas this dec? Previously, we planned to celebrate xmas in Papar and then celebrate new year in my ‘kampung’. However, there was a slight change at last moment..My sis in law had delivered baby boy on the 30th of Nov last few days..so they planned to celebrate the full moon of their baby this coming new year..That’s why, we exchange the schedule…I’m okay with that..as long as I can go back to my hometown…If I’m not mistaken, my last visit to my kampung was about 3 months ago..I couldn’t go back frequently because I always have class on weekend…hopefully I can ease my pain of missing my kampung and my mom during xmas…
Ok..that’s all for now..

Dinner during my bday...

We went to Hornbil a famous steamboat restaurant in Kuching to celebrate my birthday. The restaurant is famous because you can take as much as you can for the raw meats and vegetables including mushrooms and cook it by yourself on top of your table because all the equipments has been provided there for you and not merely the soup. All the ingredients were there, salt, sauce, ketchup, chilies, oyster etc and there were varieties of pre-ready raw meats for you to choose and just cook it. It will only cost you RM18 per person. The funny thing was that when I accidentally put all the raw meats into the soup. My husband was quite shocked and says, “That’s not for the soup. I reminded you to put these into it not that one”…(pointing at the fish balls and mushrooms) I was so embarrassed and felt offended. As usual I am quite sensitive, I was about to cry, fortunately, I manage to control my feeling and accepted that it was my fault. I don’t want to ruin our dinner. The dinner was great…it was our first dinner together celebrating my birthday after we have known each other closely until we got married.

Mm...thanks to my hubby..

Hi..

What a tiring day!!! I am in Kuching now…We went to shopping the whole day. I was so happy and touched when my hubby bought for me a few items with the reason that my birthday is coming up. Mm..he said that it’s okay to overspend once in blue moon…if he got extra money…coincidently, he just got his claim and he’s the one who offered to buy me those items including one DVD player…

He’s actually wanted to buy a wardrobe for himself but we couldn’t make it as we tried to find the single and simple one with affordable price. Mm…finally, we ended up in shopping mall looking for all my ‘things’…

Compared to KK, I was quite wondered why there was a traffic jam on Saturday here in Kuching? We were caught in traffic jam a few times. The situation was getting even worst when it was raining heavily in the evening. I was pissed off by the attitude of some drivers who like to honk on the road. It’s only my fourth day here and almost every day I heard the honk. It’s made me love my KK town even more which I found very seldom to hear those irritating honk except for the friendly one…

Ok…it’s time to stop for a while…will update again next time…

Huhu...

Wah…

It has been almost a week I cracked my brain to finish my C++ assignment. The question was very simple and superficially looks easy but when I started to do it, oh my God…I’ve spent almost every night just to find out the solution. I’ve learnt this subject once or to be specific, 7 years ago and I never touch this ever since. It’s our first assignment, it’s so hard for me to solve the problem given…However, by doing, and completing that assignment, I’ve learnt a lot. Mmm…My 1st quiz marks was not so impressive. I only manage to get 15 out of 30. What an awful marks. However, I’ll try to better after this. There will be a few presentations after this Raya holiday…I know, I’ll be very busy after this.

I missed to deliver my speech in PKKTMC training meeting. I wish to achieve my ACB during this term…at least I want to contribute 1 goal to our club this term. Last time when I was the president, I didn’t contribute even 1 goal. Really regretting that part!!

Good news is, today around 9pm…I’ll meet my husband in Kuching. I’ve applied for 5 days leave and plus with the Hari Raya Holiday, wah…I’ll spend about 12 days with my hubby. I’m so happy!!! I want to celebrate my birthday with him…but my annual leave is 4 days left…I keep it for my Xmas holiday. I’ve checked the calendar and if I’m not mistaken, Xmas day is fall on Monday, so there’ll be 4 days left in a week for me to make use of my annual leave…

Next week I’ll be stepping to another level of age…Pondering at the number (I mean my age..huhu), still couldn’t accept that fact that I am that ‘old’ already. Whatever it is, my goal is to complete my Degree and if possible I want to be the best student in my class….iffff possible…haha, It’s not as simple as eating a slice of cake but it claims determination, effort, perseverance, patience, and many more…so to myself…ALL THE BEST!!!:)

It could be some of the sad chapters in my life...

Today, I woke up around 6.30am…I feel so tired and still sleepy. I called my hubby and wake him up…From his voice; I could clearly recognize that he has just waked up and still lazy to get up from the bed. Still thinking about ‘something’ happened a few days ago. I tried to forget it but my heart was unsettled. I know, time will heal…some more, may be for a few persons out there would say... "huh…it’s not a big deal if compared with other cases...” However, for me...it’s only a beginning…if I take it so easy, I won’t shocked if the worst could happen later on…who knows…Only God... I understood that, we can’t blame one particular side only…yes, but actually it could be avoided if we say ‘NO’ to anything that leading us to those similar cases at the first place…as the famous saying ‘preventing is better than to cure’…just say ‘NO’ and we could make a different…mm…let the time heal…

I went through the whole day by attending a timetable course, which I think was quite boring. Why did I say like that? The instructor kept on speaking continuously in front and told us to listen and do nothing. We sat there for almost 4 hours listening to his lectures and half an hour before lunchtime, he asked us create our own timetable. What I see is that, we do not have enough time to do the practical. The time was limited and the time table that we’re about to create was totally different from the examples that he has given; If only that he passed the CD to us and installed the time table software a little bit earlier. We will have much time to do the practical and in the meantime, we could ask him questions if any. Furthermore, we cannot remember the basic steps because he did not allowed us to switch on our notebook. I understood that what he is trying to do was good…he wanted us to focus more on his lectures but for me, he failed to manage the time…

Is it acceptable?

Mm..don't know what to say.. I felt like I'm not important to someone...Oh dear...
God please help me to handle this...

UMS...another new chapter of my life..

I am very happy as I'm going to further my study in UMS. I hope the course I'd chosen is not that hard. I am sure, I'll do until the best of my ability to graduate with flying colors. To my beloved husband, thank you dear for your support..:) and your sacrifice..I love you...

3D Modelling Course

Yahoooo.....

I know how to draw a 3D objects now. Recently, we went to 3D Modelling Course. I like this course very much. However, these skills need to practice frequently...otherwise, I can be easily forgoten the techniques..Thanks to our lecture Mr. Wee..

The course was held at SUMAI HOTEL, K.TERENGGANU...the hotel was not bad...however the food were more on meat evryday and it was very rare to have fish..but, overall...I'll give 4 stars for the hotel and 5 stars for the course we attended...:)