Our 2nd anniversary...14.02.2011

Today..14 of Feb 2011..A historical and meaningful date to me. It has been 2 years, my marriage…

Mm..a week before, there was a slight misunderstanding between the two of us. But, instead of making it clear, both of us seems so ego, we try to elude talking about it…who is going to start the conversation first? Me..? Him? No body wants. And, at last, guess what happened? Both of us ended up with an empty stomach for the whole day. We only ate for breakfast and that’s it…the misunderstanding leads us to fasting…that’s the funny side of the story…

But, why I can’t erase that from my memory? Is that a new challenge for me? Where to go, what, why, and everything seems need an explanations. From the bright side, I know, that’s how I can understand him deeply. It made me realize, for all this while, my knowledge about him was still very limited…There were many things to discover and to dig in order for us avoid such things to be happened again.

Today, yes, it’s our 2nd anniversary. Instead of that very few bitter ingredients along the way, I better talk about how I lucky I am to have a wonderful family…loving, charismatic, has sense of humor, responsible, charming, gentlemen husband (how could I unsatisfied with those characteristics?) and a very cute, active, chubby, fair and lovely son. This the precious gifts from the Man above. I should be grateful, no complaining…(^___^). If there is a storm in a heavy rain, there is always a rainbow suddenly appears after it…And it is definitely so beautiful…

Well, come back to my planning today…mm, we plan to have lunch together, somewhere we never been before…may be at a Maple Restaurant or else where. But, seem this plan couldn’t work out. He has a limited break time during afternoon and coincidently my class will start at 11am to 1 pm..huhu..so my plan B, maybe I will cook a special dinner tonight…especially for him..:) as a surprise..hehe..mm, I prefer plan B.

Tomorrow, he needs to travel again..So he’ll be away for 3 days. I already get accustomed with this…previously; I used to be alone so this is a small matter for me…No problem at all..:) Ok, I have another thins to be done today…c ya…adios, hasta luego…

Oh my students....

Am I a good lecturer for my student? I’m teaching the same subjects, my favorite subject; Autocad. To be plain, I love the subject very much and I am not trying to boast myself on this but honestly, I’ve mastered the skills in Autocad. The problem is that, why it seem so complex for my student to understand it? I told them hundred times, frequently read the status bar below the screen, because it is an interaction between the user and the Autocad but most of the time they will just ignore it. They are so pampered; they don’t even want to stand on their own feet. When I try to elaborate in detail on how to draw or modify some objects, apparently, they are listening to me attentively…but guess what is happening in the other side? They are doing their own things which are totally out of my topics. This scenario happens because of the lack of computers in our lab computer. We have three labs but all together are having the same problem. Just imagine, 1 computer shared by 3 to 4 students. There are 44 students in my class and only a few computers that are usable for this lesson. Some of them have their own notebook but how about that unaffordable student? Do I have to discriminate or force them to buy? How ruthless I am…

I hope I can find other alternative on how they can cultivate interest in learning this subject. And I also want to improve how I convey the lesson…hmm…

Good bye 2010..welcome 2011..(a bit late)

Hello, hi..hola..

Time passes…here I am again. It is now in the year of 2011...how time passes so quickly. The last post I’ve posted in this blog was on May 9, 2010…which is almost a year. Where did I go? I am not going anywhere...I am still here, in Poly KK…and still a UMS student; there is still a long way to go…

Many things happened last year…6.6.10…it was an unforgettable date ever and a great blessing from God. Finally, the apple of my heart, my precious son…DEO CLARENCE TIANDUN was born. The moment was still clearly vivid in my memories. When Deo crying for the first time and holding him right away after the labour. Thank you God…You have given us the true meaning of this life...To my hubby, thank you for being there for me, giving me support during the agony.

Now, I’ve opened the new chapter in my life story…I now have new story to share with…I have Deo to laugh with and cry together. My precious Deo was so cute...reminding me to my husband...*(^____^)*…During that time my husband was a thousand miles from us…he’s working in Sarawak and he only came back once in a month. My title as a mother and student at the same time makes me really exhausted and busy all the time especially when exam was around the corner. It was really hard to focus on what I am doing or reading when hearing the little baby was crying. Fortunately, my sister helped me a lot…she became Deo’s babysitter. Thanks a lot sister…I know, u missed Deo so much now..:)

23th of Dec…another joyous date happened to me last year. After been living apart for almost 2 years, finally God granted our pray. My dearest husband was transferred here, just in a right moment, when Deo starts to recognise people around him. What a meaningful life!!! I will always remember this moment…where the real journey begins………

This year will be our 2nd anniversary, during Valentines Day…the planning is to take a family studio’s photo but we’re still not certain because we haven’t booked it. Coincidently, the CNY holiday is one week earlier so I am afraid if the studio is closed. Supposed I have booked it a few days ago but I was a little bit late, it was closed already for the CNY holiday…So, our 2nd planning is…still thinking…may be, we will go for picnic or etc...

Well, may be it is not too late to say good bye to 2010 and welcome to 2011…I want to be an optimistic person…always be proud of what I’ve done…and more organize in doing works, dealing with time and taking care of my family and giving them my heartiest dedication. Because after all, there are my sunshine…Hubby and Deo… Till then…hasta pronto..:)

Counting each passing day

I’m counting the day now…Actually, I still have 1 month to date, but just in case it’s better get ready from now on, physically and mentally…Am I ready to become a mom? Mm…no comment, but I am extremely enthusiasm waiting for that moment to come…

Lately, I’m so busy with my classes, I’m worried…there were few subjects that I couldn’t thoroughly understand. Especially, my utmost subject Object Oriented Programming… My carry marks on that subject weren’t impressed me much, I know I can do better than that, but my time was terribly limited. I spent my night time to study until 12am sometimes but lately, I feel so tired easily and sleepy before the usual time. I’m going to stand for my exam end of this month... I hope my baby to be born, waits for his mom to settle everything before he’s born.

It’s has been quite long I hadn’t gone back to Keningau. I don’t have the courage to drive back since my belly almost touching the car steering while driving. My hubby will come back here this coming Friday, but only for 3 days, he’ll be off again and take his long holiday on 28th of May. Cant wait for him to come… All this time, I’m alone in my house especially during night. My brother who is staying with me worked at the night shift.

Last night, while I was studying around 10.30pm, suddenly everything surround me became so dark... then only I knew, it was black out. I was so scared, I saw nothing. Luckily, I’ve prepared candles and torchlight at the easily reachable area. I wasn’t sure how long the black out was, but I think more than an hour. It was so hot and the mosquitoes kept on buzzing in my ear. I switched on my laptop fortunately the battery was still fully charged, so I can use it to ease my boringness. Mm...That’s what happened last night.

Today, the weather looks so horrible. I could see the main street is flooding. Thanks God, I don’t have to use that road. My aim today is to settle my students’ carry marks. Actually, I could have done it by last week, but I’m giving opportunities for my students to improve their marks by giving them further assignments. I don’t want them to fail in this subject.

Talking about Toastmasters, I must say that I’m proud to be myself. I manage to deliver my 7 speeches up to now. And, again…even though I am quite busy with my works at the office, classes every weekend and spending my night time to study, I still manage to squeeze my time to prepare, rehearse and deliver my speeches. This coming Thursday, I’ll be the speaker again, and my speech objective will be “Speaking in Praise”. Mm...Haven’t prepared the speech yet but so far, my idea is talking about my mom. She is my aspirer to inspire me, and I genuinely revere her.

Oklah... That’s all for now. Will update this blog next time... Adios, hasta pronto..:)

Mmm...after a year..

Last night, we went to Nelayan restaurant to celebrate the Valentine’s Day and our 1st wedding anniversary. Mm..it’s juz an ordinary dinner but have a special meaning. The thing that I regretted the most was, I can’t capture the time, being together with him in a special moment. However, I’ satisfied…we’ll keep the memory in our heart...forever…

Today’s my mother’s in law birthday…and my late father’s birthday. We celebrate it in a very simple way, but full with laughter and happiness. I was so jealous as I never have the chance to celebrate my father’s birthday with us while he’s still alive. All I can do now is just praying for his soul. May perpetual light shine on him..Amen..

I hope everything is okay there in my Kampung…especially my mother…Recently, she complained about my two stubborn bro and sis…they never learn! I don’t know what should I say…I hope, my mother can hang on with their attitude...sometimes very rude and too over! God please touch their heart so that they will change one day…

Mm..that’s all for now…I’ve no idea..

I coudn't believe it..

Yesterday, K.Jumriani passed me the phone, she said “En. Sahul is on the line”..We were all laughing because as far as I know, K.Jum was trying to play with me, further more…she’s smiling.. I approached her with an astonishing face.. “Really K.Jum?” I asked her a few times because I don’t believe it at all. How could on earth, En.Sahul, our X-Deputy Directy, is calling me? K.Jum nodded but still with a grinning face. I took up the phone..

“Hello, I’m Sahul…do u still remember me?” Yea…I recognized his voice..

Actually, En.Sahul called me because he wanted me to issue a certified letter for him to certify that he is one of the PKK Toastmasters members. I said to him, I’m not eligible to issue the letter because any letter must be from Toastmasters International. But he said, I’m the president so I can do that…The letter is actually for his promotion purposed as a supporting certificate.

Mm…during the end of our conversation, he asked me to post it immediately…
To be honest, I want to say to him and all the x-toastmasters members.. “Serve them right” Because finally they(not all the members) realize how important Toastmaster is…J

New beginning of 2010...

I went to UMS to obtain my result. I was a bit shocked when I got it. I manage to get 3.56…this is the highest point I ever achieve compared to my diploma previously. This had inspired me to do well and even better next semester. Pondering at the journey that I have to pass through (3 ½ years to go), I admitted that it is still a very long journey to go…but looking back at the previous semester, the time flew unconsciously. I was back to my normal weight which is 45kg and I everything has come back to a normal condition in all aspects, I can drink milk now and most importantly, I could drink plenty plain water…Now days, I felt tired easily…Maybe because I’m 5 months now…This weekend, the new story of my study will begin…and guess what, I will become very busy during weekend…huhu..no free time, no outing, no sleeping but classes the whole day..

Recently, my bro encountered a big trouble which was everything to do with his life. Fortunately, we manage to solve it slowly by discussion and consideration. It’s involving two parties, that is why we need to settle it down carefully. Sometimes, I was about to giving up, taking care of my family, but since I am the only one they could depend on…so I have to hang on..I know, I still can carry my cross…

Another 2 weeks, all of us will be celebrating Valentine’s Day…including me n my hubby. It’s not merely a Valentine’s Day for us but it’s our first anniversary day...:) I don’t know where to celebrate and how…As long as my hubby coming back here, it’s enough for me…Mm…Juz missing him so much..:)

Ok..got class now…tata…..

Still waiting for next week to come…ya, waiting for my sweet dearly hubby to come..:)

Now, I’m staying with my 2 bro’s n sister…Believe it or not, I’m sleeping with my sister cuz I don’t want to sleep alone. Everyday, I woke up around 6.10am…and every morning I’ll start my day by praying…Now is Dec and next month will be year 2010. What I’ve accomplished this year?

Of course, this year I got married..and that was the most memorable and happiest event that I will never forget…and the 2nd thing is, I’ll be a mom soon…Thanks God. This is an amazing and priceless gift that we ever had…My husband is so happy and so do I..:)

Mm..I’ve started pursuing my study tin UMS. What a challenging mission to achieved…with my recent unwell condition together with the work at office, it’s not an easy task to do. Paying the education’s fee by our own doubled the challenge. I hope, I can go through with this…It’s my dream to pursue my study. I want to be a good lecturer who is worthy to convey what ever knowledge I have to my students. Now, I’m feeling like I’m still very young in this profession even though I’ve spent almost 7 years in this field…I don’t want to be the same level as my student…I feel pity to them. Of course, my experienced had contributed to my knowledge, but I’m not satisfied because people are not looking at your experiences but they’ll judge you through your qualification. Am I right?

Daily, you still have 3 and half years to go…Go for it…!!

My new experience..

Wah…what a lazy blogger...I didn’t update my blog for almost 2 months..I’ve been so busy lately, sitting my final exam in ums. My last paper was yesterday…everything went smooth except for yesterday..it was a disaster…huhu.. But it was pass.. I don’t want to think about it anymore…
Mm..These few weeks, I’m feeling so uncomfortable…I don’t have the appetite to eat…I’m losing out my weight. Previously, my weight was 45kg now go down to 42kg..I hope I can handle this. Apart from that, I’m so happy actually…When I know about the good news…I was so happy…I don’t know how to express it..The first person I told..of course my hubby..:) We were extremely happy…Mm…but the challenge is so though…go through with this alone…without being staying with my hubby make me feel very sick and wanna cry…actually I did.. But, thanks to God…I’ve manage to go through this for the first 3 months…with the help of my bro and sis. Thanks to them for cooking for me…
Today is my 2nd appointment with the doctor..I hope everything will be ok…but I’m afraid of injection…Gosh..I hate that..It’s very painful…huhu…
So, what’s our planning for the coming xmas this dec? Previously, we planned to celebrate xmas in Papar and then celebrate new year in my ‘kampung’. However, there was a slight change at last moment..My sis in law had delivered baby boy on the 30th of Nov last few days..so they planned to celebrate the full moon of their baby this coming new year..That’s why, we exchange the schedule…I’m okay with that..as long as I can go back to my hometown…If I’m not mistaken, my last visit to my kampung was about 3 months ago..I couldn’t go back frequently because I always have class on weekend…hopefully I can ease my pain of missing my kampung and my mom during xmas…
Ok..that’s all for now..

Dinner during my bday...

We went to Hornbil a famous steamboat restaurant in Kuching to celebrate my birthday. The restaurant is famous because you can take as much as you can for the raw meats and vegetables including mushrooms and cook it by yourself on top of your table because all the equipments has been provided there for you and not merely the soup. All the ingredients were there, salt, sauce, ketchup, chilies, oyster etc and there were varieties of pre-ready raw meats for you to choose and just cook it. It will only cost you RM18 per person. The funny thing was that when I accidentally put all the raw meats into the soup. My husband was quite shocked and says, “That’s not for the soup. I reminded you to put these into it not that one”…(pointing at the fish balls and mushrooms) I was so embarrassed and felt offended. As usual I am quite sensitive, I was about to cry, fortunately, I manage to control my feeling and accepted that it was my fault. I don’t want to ruin our dinner. The dinner was great…it was our first dinner together celebrating my birthday after we have known each other closely until we got married.